ohmygod

I feel really really awful today.

I just got my worst score ever. and that, is beyond stupid. I never felt more stupid than today. Except for the day when my sister decided to remind me about the fact that I'm the dumbest person in the whole world. Make that an idiot.

and then, the air conditioners in my class are broken. dang it. jakarta is really really really reallly hot nowadays. gaaaaarrrrrrh. I can't even think clearly today.

speaking of thinking clearly, I've just realized that I was just babbling in front of my English teacher this morning when he asked me to read a text and then retell about the story. gaaaaah. I must have looked like a complete idiot back there.

wait. and oh yeah, I can't talk or fight or even see him today. blargh.

then I got home and then realized. I'm getting fatter. damn you simak ui usm itb utul ugm. Because of those test, I ate like a pig. A giant-and-always-hungry pig.

and then I read this e-mail that my good friend had sent me almost a year ago when I told him that I was planning to do a suicide.



and somehow, I feel better. or maybe it's because of from whom this email is hahahaha.